`another me: 1 jan 2007 - untitled
Monday, January 01, 2007
「 what's behind my shadow. 5:45:00 PM 」

1st Jan 2007 - Untitled

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Today is the first day of 2007. So for me it means forget somethings on 2006 and continue on 2007. 2006 happened too much things that was not abled to explain. Especially on that special someone, jus wan to dump those memories away. She always said things to me that made me thought I had hopes and chances. But her actions and behaviour is breaking my chances and tearing my hopes away. I felt so childish, naive, stupid and dumb when i think of that now. I shouldn't had thinking TOO much of the chances and hopes whatever she said. Perhaps what she had done is trying not to hurt me. But now it hurts even more, perhaps much more than if I never know of the hopes and chances I thought.

I don't feel really good right now... my mood is neither angry nor sad. Jus imagine, someone gave u dream and is that same someone who destroyed ur dream. That kind of feeling is very... Argh.. Don't wan to talk about it any more.

and also

I must also thank her that she gave me those "hopes" and "chances" or else I would not had passed my N lvls.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

xIgUa
Signing off...
Don't like my current mood...
A hole in my heart & I hope I patch it soon.. It may take a long time, the hole is jus too deep.
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