`another me: December 2006
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
「 what's behind my shadow. 11:22:00 PM 」

(New format for my blog. Now i will have heading/title for my every post)

26 dec 2006 - A Test From God

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today is my off day... a lot things happened today ( and a bit from yesterday night ) which neither good or bad things, becos it can be said as a good thing and a bad thing.

one thing i know its good for sure is that, until today, i've found my aim for my life is to protect and bring happiness to someone i valued most and that is why i lived for.

and

one thing i know its bad for sure is that i know i may lose that special someone, anytime.

perhaps i din done well in anyway or anywhere to make that special someone feel safe and bring joy to that special someone.

but i know that i will still place that person i valued most in a special place of my heart; continue protecting and caring that special someone, no matter which path that special someone choose.

as long as that special someone feels happy, i will be happy too, for what ever decision that special someone made, i will respect that special someone's decision.

xIgUa
Signing off...
i dun know wad can i do now...



Saturday, December 09, 2006
「 what's behind my shadow. 1:32:00 AM 」

yesterday i had finally made my mind clear of something i have been talking past few days except the joshua thing... i will totally give up that hope i have been hoping for long ago as i had seeked for my answer yesterday... its very clear and direct to me. kinda feel down at that moment but i rather get the answer soon and direct than i keep thinking about it.. lets hope everything will go back normal for me and... as soon as possible.. but i really hope that the answer i seeked is the opposite from what i know now...



Wednesday, December 06, 2006
「 what's behind my shadow. 11:43:00 PM 」

very f**ked up tonight, also dunno wads happening to joshua. the sms he reply me is like f**ked me up loh... maybe is becos of the vivo thing? he kena posted on his off days (2days) to vivo to work... then he dun wan and i dun wan too. so he asked me to work for him at vivo for 1 day but i rejected.. then maybe he angry over this bah i dunno wad lah! i also have the rights to reject wad? its also not my job that day to go vivo... or maybe he thing that i only think about the commissions or not ( joshua if u reading i mus tell u, IM NOT! ) or other reason i dunno! wah dunno wads wrong with him! his replies on sms is giving me f**ked up attitude.. so pissed.. sia lah hope he stop this nonsense sia,argh! no mood to blog le!!!!!

xIgUa Signing off...



Monday, December 04, 2006
「 what's behind my shadow. 9:04:00 PM 」

yeah.. finally got time to post liao... hahas! after a very long time of waiting and many tries to get into blogger, FINALLY i able to get into here... perhaps something is wrong with my Internet Explorer bah..

so happy can post again liao, i get a day off today.. oh man.. i rather work man.. at home so freaking boring...

didn't know today someone off too.. or else can ask her out.. then will not be so boring liao...

dunno why always wanna chat with her, she will be busy de (thats why i dunno she off today) ... that joshua chat with her, she like not busy de.. how i know? becos she always know wad happen to me everyday de... and is that stupid joshua told her de... something is wrong... u know wad i mean.. LOL, joking joking only lah. x)

i wonder hows joshua's sales today.. how many deals he made today.. becos he do not have off today... hope he do not make any sales! x) haha comfirm will make at least 1 deal de lah..

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today i suddenly feel like giving up on something that i hoping for long ago... but it still cant be granted until now and i keep thinking it the whole day... that thing is hovering in my mind the whole day... so i think i should give it up... its difficult get it.. too difficult... is as difficult as getting super-natural powers... the chances is like a thread of slik, very tiny.. so i decided to give up... unless there is miracle..

giving up is abit hard so i tried to avoid it when ever i can...

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omg... i ate 2 shares of rice for dinner! my mum cook my sister's share but my sister didn't not come back for dinner... it happens most of the time de lah... everytime is my dad eat 2 shares of rice... eat until his stomache so big.. so today i helped him ate the rice.. 2 shares of rice.... OMFG! too much for the current me man!!! wanna puke sia! too full liao! wah.. i know how my dad feel when he stomache is not so big that time and he ate 2 shares of rice T_T

xIgUa Signing off...
feeling down and bloated...