`another me: January 2007

.WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT ME!.

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.CURRENTLY PLAYING.

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.ME.

My English Skills:

Punctuation: 60% Spelling: 60% Grammar: 40% Vocabulary: 20%

[NAME]
.Lee Jun Hua Wilson

[AGE]
16+

[HEIGHT]
.186cm, 1.86m

[FAMILY]
.Lee
.-=+[fB]+=-

[NICKNAMES]
.DaxIgUa
.xigua
.melon

[BIRTHDAY]
.08/08/1990
.Born in the year of Horse
.Leo baby

[SCHOOL]
.Princess Elizabeth Primary School
~~1C`97~~, ~~2C`98~~, ~~3H`99~~, ~~4H`oo~~, ~~5D`o1~~, ~~6D`o2~~
.Fuhua Secondary School
~~1G`o3~~, ~~2G`o4~~, ~~3G`o5~~, ~~4G`o6~~, 5S2`o7

[GENDER]
.Male

[HOBBIES]
.Play computer/online games
.Cycling
.Play Basketball
.Often visit LaLaLand
.Making friends
.Hanging out with friends

[STATUS]
.Currently single and available

.WISHLIST.

GRANTED:
.~~Get to Sec 5 N(A) in `o7~~
.~~A watch~~

**UPDATED** on 28/12/06
.Good O lvls result in `o7
.New mp3/mp4(1GB) or PSP(1GB)
.Slim down (76KG) *IN PROGRESS*
.Adidas shoe (Model name: Campus)
.A new pencil case
.Nike wristband (the simple one, with a white logo with blue base (skyblue if got)
.Thicker and longer chain for my pendant
.A quite computer keyboard
.Contact Lens

.LIKES & DISLIKES.

[LIKES]

Person:
.My dearest San Jie!
.Treasured fB members
.My Parents & Sisters

Food & Drinks:
.Watermelon
.Long John Silver - Combo 2
.Roti Prata
.Fish & Chips
.100 Plus
.BBQed Mash Mallows
.Mee Goreng
.KFC - Zinger Meal
.Xiao Long Bao (Tang bao)
.Zha Jiao Zhi (not Zha Wun Tun)

Activites:
.Kayaking
.Online
.Watching Movies
.Ice-Skating
.BasketBall
.Pool

Colours:
.Red
.Green
.Sky Blue
.White

Numbers:
.0
.8

Movies:
.Tong Meng Qi Yuan
.Scary Movies

[DISLIKES]
.Cigarette Smell
.Some Bugs
.Naggy People
.Sotongs
.Oysters
.Clams
.Long Waiting Time
.Pink
.Number 9
.A bit dun like sweets/candy (unless need to keep myself to stay awake)

.CHATTIN.

.MY MEMORIES.

November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007

.FRIENDS.

.Bee Suan
.Carol
.Chee Yae
.Chien Juen
.Chin Hui
.Clarence
.Evon
.Hup Lian
.Hwee Sheng
.Jenmey
.Joshua
.Kar Seng
.Kai Ling
.Lin Min
.Michelle
.Pamela
.Qing Hui
.Sarah
.Si Jia
.Si Pei
.Tiffany
.Valerie
.Xiao Qing
.Xueli
.Yee Cheng
.Yew Tinn
.Yuling
.Zi Tong

.CREDITS.

Edited & Posted by: ME`xIgUa
Designed by: *fallenSOUL
Images from: *fallenSOUL

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

23 Jan 2007 - WOOT! GREAT NEWS FOR ME!!!!

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Yeah!!!

I've got a new Jie Jie!

Haha!

So happy!

Her age is 5+ months (5 months and 8 days) older than me.

Very happy that to have such a caring and kind sister!

She is a most wonderful girl I ever known in my life.

Frankly, better than my real Jie Jies, haha.

I amire her attitude & character. And what she had done.I hope I can be like her! Of course not her gender lahs! hahas =x

xIgUa
Signing off...
^^

Thursday, January 11, 2007

11 Jan 2007 - Which is the better choice? To stay or to give up and help?

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Haiz... Another sad day passed...

Everything started with a long story and I do not want to say again lah...

These few days, I've been living with pain, fear and sorrow. These feelings doesn't start recently, it started at the very first day of 2007, 1st Jan. Leaving a very huge impact on my heart for 2007. These feelings not only left a huge impact, it also caused me to have lot of restless nights. Thats why Im yawning often in school this year.

Many things happened since school reopen. Somethings I do not wish to happen actually happened and it was heartbreaking.

That special someone I had been talking about doesn't love me as I loved her. I think, Why doesn't she likes me? And like that person? Where have I done wrong? Did I offend her? Is it because I had not done enough for her? and more. I've done everything I could to let her like me. Protecting her & try my best make her happy always, etc. So I approached her and asked why. And the answer was no feeling towards me. Okay, reason is acceptable, can't force...

Feeling so heartbroken....

Eversince this heartbreaking news reached me, I feel terrible, very terrible even until now. My heart was aching as if my heart was pierced through by a vemon arrow, blood flowing out slowly like endless tears and the vemon spreading throughout my whole body and causing my body to be manipulated (Unable to control myself) and nearly went mad. For the first time ever to felt so emotional after hearing that news. [Don't you feel weird for someone like me to get emotional? I mean I seldomly get emotional.]

But lucky I didn't went mad.

But I was abit angry at that period of time! She actually broke her promise because she promised to be before not fall in love with that guy. I really cant believed that she that kind of person actually broke her promise which made me even more sad... At first I did not know what to do.. didn't want to accept the fact that she like that guy... then I came up with this idea of forgetting her and everything about her as I need to face them daily and also so that she can go together with that guy happily, so I start ignoring that special someone trying to make her hate me and eventually forget about me. But everything does go as smooth as it think... Trying to ferget her was difficult and hurtful to myself. I ignored her, she sad... I see her sad I even even more sad and I want her to be happy! So told her that I accept the facts but I actually pretend to accept the fact that she with that guy and pretend Im happy that both of them together so that the girl will not worry about me and live happily. But the truth was, I really do not accept the fact that both of them together! I feel so hurt everytime I saw them together. Everytime I with her or around her, I will try my very best to pretend that nothing happened, I am happy, so please don't worry about me and the fact was the opposite... and this last until yesterday...

After days, I think how to make her even happier? And I come out with this idea. I start to treat her harshly and pretend to dislike her. Talk to her loudly, give her attitude, scold and told her i hate her alot, just to make her dislike me. I also don't want to behave like this. I know it surely hurt her a lot alot and she will sad and will even cry... But I have no choice but to do this... because I think, this is the best way to make feel happy for long term and be together with him happily. Like what chinese saying, chang tong bu ru duan tong for her and I...

But today.. she updated her blog and I read it... haiz... I feel so sorry for her.. didn't expect things would turn out so badly.. she was very sad and now even got family problem... now she has 2 troubles in her mind... my problem and her family problem.. haiz... I really don't know what to do know! Should I take back my plan now and apologise and help her? But if I do, I will lose this only chance to let her hate me... but I really want to help her now.. but I also don't want to miss my only chance! She is breaking down soon I know because she surely cannot handle these by her own de. [she only look strong outside but she is fragile inside]

I really don't know what to do now! And what the F that guy together with him doing? Why he didn't help her! (feel like punching him right now!)

Should I stay and help or give up?!

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xIgUa
Signing off...
= (
I know she can't handle and Im scared...

Friday, January 05, 2007

05 Jan 2007 - A very important lesson I learnt

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Today I finally had the courage to accept the fact of something and I learnt something VERY important!

I've learnt a VERY important lesson that learnt that if you really love someone, doesn't mean that you need to have her. If you really love someone, you must protect her and make her happy at all time and mustn't let her get hurt or feel sad even she like the person is not you. And bless her with the other guy but not hate them. This is what true love is all about.

xIgUa
Signing off....
I suffer better than she suffer...

Monday, January 01, 2007

1st Jan 2007 - Untitled

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Today is the first day of 2007. So for me it means forget somethings on 2006 and continue on 2007. 2006 happened too much things that was not abled to explain. Especially on that special someone, jus wan to dump those memories away. She always said things to me that made me thought I had hopes and chances. But her actions and behaviour is breaking my chances and tearing my hopes away. I felt so childish, naive, stupid and dumb when i think of that now. I shouldn't had thinking TOO much of the chances and hopes whatever she said. Perhaps what she had done is trying not to hurt me. But now it hurts even more, perhaps much more than if I never know of the hopes and chances I thought.

I don't feel really good right now... my mood is neither angry nor sad. Jus imagine, someone gave u dream and is that same someone who destroyed ur dream. That kind of feeling is very... Argh.. Don't wan to talk about it any more.

and also

I must also thank her that she gave me those "hopes" and "chances" or else I would not had passed my N lvls.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

xIgUa
Signing off...
Don't like my current mood...
A hole in my heart & I hope I patch it soon.. It may take a long time, the hole is jus too deep.