`another me: Disappointment....
Sunday, November 12, 2006
「 what's behind my shadow. 6:26:00 PM 」

Today... kinda disappointing... after hearing someone say "see wan to work first anot..." this word is really disappointing. before holiday, wow we were discussing about getting a job when holiday after his exam, and i thinking wanna wait for him after his exam and get a job together, becos i kinda first - timer for jobs thing so i waited for him and now after his exam he told me " see wan to work first anot"... swt! i was like wtf? i waited for so long and he told me "see wan to work first anot" i thought before holiday and his exam we were talking about getting a job? after he told me that sentence, we quarreled of course after quarreled with ea other he say me " u think u big issit?" swt! how this gonna think im big? is jus that too much time wasted on waiting of course im mad, haiz...

the reason i wanna find a job becos is i wanna to cover the expenses for Prom night clothings and such... and so much time and so many chances of getting a job by waiting for him... ok well wad over is over, i have learnt my lesson.. i dun think i will wait any more.. better get a job ASAP or else no one gonna hire me. u know y i say or else no one gonna hire me? is becos... u think lah,

first, mostly people only hire someone who can work at least 1 month.. if i drag somemore, i dun think i 1 month to work.. becos Prom night on 19 dec... so 1 month will be before 19 dec i mus find a job.. haiz...

second, O lvls finish soon, by that time O lvls students MAY wan to find a ajob and my chances of getting a job will be reduced. some O lvls students already finish O lvl and some till 20+ nov.. so like higher chance of getting a job will be before 20 nov but my target is 19 nov lah...

but now problem comes... ivan chalet on 14-16 dec.. i dunno i wanna go now anot... becos.. i scared i dunno i 100% get a job before 19 nov... if i 100% can get a job after ivan's chalet.. i will go chalet first.. haiyo now so confusing... (help me think of something by tagging some idea on my tag board)

now get back the person who say "see wan to work first anot", i know y he say that lah.. he might be thinking before 19 nov get a job too lah becos he going prom night too and ivan chalet ends at 16 nov so 16 nov ~ 18nov find job lah.. i jus scared that i dun have the luck or we dun have the luck, so different thinking and we quarreled.... haiyo.. i now thinking,

1. should i find job now?
2. or after ivan chalet then find job?
3. or after ivan chalet then find job together with him?

(last opt may not a good idea, maybe a good idea too).. haiz.. give me ideas if u have any on my tagboard or sms me.. haiz

Confused xIgUa signing off..
i hate this kind of situation... T_T